Day 1 of 2011

Yesterday I was trying to be all reflective and inspiring, and wasn't really feelin' it...I love that writing takes introspection and thought, and that sometimes it is difficult.  Writing a Book is on my Bucket List.
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My Internet Registration Email account was hacked. (That is the email address that I use for all online registrations... and currently has over 25,000+ unread emails)  That is a job that was not on my "to do" list today... to delete all the addresses from that email address book and report that email to yahoo's spam watchers.
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Himself and I (mostly I) stayed up until just about 12:30am or so last night... he fell asleep watching Law & Order | UK. With him snoring away, I perused one of the movies I've been wanting to see for some time ~  Audrey Hepburn & Fred Astaire in "Funny Face" -- Lorelei Gilmore's favorite movie (Lorelei of "The Gilmore Girls" which is one of my favorite TV series of all time... himself bought the entire series for me!!) -- but I digress... the quality of the movie was iffy -- it was a really just pieced together and random, feeling forced.  Enjoyable and pretty, but definitely a vehicle for song and dance.  I love all musicals, so this isn't really meant to be critical, and Audrey did a nice job on the singing... but it isn't one that I'll watch again. I just read that it was nominated for a bunch of awards... interesting how much movies have changed over the last 60 years.
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I'm jotting down things I want to accomplish today (just today's list, not a list for the year, I'll do that tomorrow) -- and a variety of thoughts regarding really keeping to a schedule on a daily basis for the year.  Up until now, I have lacked routine and good habits, and my inner 3-year old has won too too many inner debates in the past on what I should be doing.(Dishes or TV; Exercise or Surf Internet; File papers or Eat; etc.)


I'm not going to focus on all the thoughts I'm having today about all the changes I want to make... one change at a time requires all my focus, all my will, all my energy, all my passion. This in and of itself is a huge change for me, when I'm 'up' I want to make all the changes all at once, and create lists and plans that are completely unrealistic!! This year I'm committing to Leo's '6changes.com' strategy = One Habit to be focused on for two months.  I will resist the temptation to overwhelm myself, which leads to self-sabotage!!


I know the weight loss journey is going to be one of the most difficult things I'm going to do in my life... and it will never have "an end", which (today) I am okay with. To actually change is (I believe) the most difficult thing to do in this life. To capture our thoughts and hold them captive (a Biblical theme) is a huge challenge, but we are capable of it.  It comes down to choice. Being conscious. Being aware at all times and stopping all the noise and distractions the second we are aware it is happening.
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I'm enjoying normal food, and I'm not having feelings of dread or sadness... I'm still very excited to begin Medifast on Tuesday, January 4th!
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There are so many good blogs out there, full of inspiration and motivation - creativity and passion, honesty and self-revelations that are revealed to all the internet. I'm inspired by many, and hope I can join the ranks of 'honest and inspiring' bloggers.  To be part of the "100 lbs Lost" club, and the "Onederland" club... the thoughts of being able to be a part of that "Look! I DID IT!!" group makes me smile!