Saturday, March 31, 2012

Day 1 of Restart -- Sept 1 is goal date for Goal Weight

I'm just sayin'.

Time to stop dilly dallying around.

MF Scale = 240.8 today.  Makes my loss 97 lbs.  Phlsdplthmpthss! (that's a strawberry, in case you needed a translation).

I bought more shakes - and I plan to have 3 shakes a day, plus a soup and a bar -- my extra's will be cream in my coffee, and a measured amount of almond butter and celery.  I may even go back to pickles!

And a plan to work out my arms.  They're ick.

Freedom in Obedience... when I know the rules, I don't have to worry about choices. 

Heading to bed now. REALLY need to make getting up EVERY DAY at 5am a priority.

every. day.

Monday, March 26, 2012

In The Pit

Feelings flying and flailing... beware of fallout.

Overwhelmed. Eating too many dark chocolate covered Almonds. The scale is up.

Emotions take over and render me almost helpless. Totally sucks.

Talking about it doesn't really help. Crying helps a little... this roller coaster ride of life... just get tired of the downturns.  Miss my family. And I'm not that far away, but I wish I saw more of them. Mom. Dad. cousins. I miss the ocean. I miss not going to Pepperdine for lectures this year.

Sometimes being a grownup really really sucks.

and the foot of the spoiled little girl stamps up and down but changes nothing.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Sad Monday

A Girl at work lost her baby on Friday night. I'm heartbroken for her and her family and her boyfriend.  The baby boy was 9 lbs, 22 inches -- the cord wrapped around his neck, and from what I understand, there's an 8-minute window to work with.

Just so sad and sick with grief for her. I really cannot imagine what it must be like.
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Things have been insane as usual... quartet and chorus have taken over for a month or so - and I've been incredibly neglectful of my poor lonely blog.

But. tonight isn't the night to make up for it.

have to sleep now.  Show love to those you love. And please say a prayer for all those who are grieving in this world over losses of life.