Everything Is Making Me Cry

 It's so frustrating.

Any little obstacle or challenge just produces tears... which makes me feel so weak. But in my weakness God is powerful. 

2 Corinthians 12:9 ~ "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.' Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christs power may reside in me."

People being nice. People not checking in. People checking in. People asking how I'm doing. It all makes me cry. It's just really hard right now. I posted to Facebook my experience this morning about having to get in to the driver's seat of the van through the passenger door... then that my driver's side window has broken (again). Some nice thoughts and one of my P & H fellow altos and sweet sweet lady sent me a Starbucks card via text... which makes me cry, of course.

Here's the Facebook Post I wrote today (9/29/2025) 

 *see photo* I was able to climb over from the passenger side (miraculously!); but it did take me 40 minutes of breaking down in tears a few times before I even made the attempt... ~Thank God it wasn't too difficult *whew!!*

 

 Then, after going through the Starbucks drive-through, my driver's side window broke. Again. It's permanently down. Himself fixed it 3x before... more tears of frustration 

... I have a call (left a message) in to the service dept at Jim Click service (so close to my house) to see how much they will charge to repair it.

There's now 201+K miles on this 2013 Dodge Town & Country van... I was hoping to not have to buy a new vehicle for another couple of years... so hoping repairing the window isn't going to be stupid expensive.

I've lent out the dodge caravan so if I need to, I still have that option for transportation.

Everything is just overwhelming, and honestly, I'm not coping very well lately. My brain and thoughts are muddled and scattered. I'm crying over the tiniest problems... I feel stuck... it's been almost a year since himself's stroke... the weirdness of time makes it seem like such a long time ago and yet not that distant. #GriefSucks

#JustTryingToMakeItThroughTheDay

— feeling drained. 

I do believe that this season of my life is part of God's plan to "encourage" me to LET GO and TRUST Him. To really have faith that He WILL take care of all my needs. That He's GOT me. When I say "encourage" I mean "force me into such pain that I'll have to move." Because, pain is what forces us to move... most of us, at least. Pain, either physical, spiritual, mental and/or emotional - the pain is what forces us to take action to reduce the pain.