Family, the other "F" word (?)

Discussing with a friend a current situation that is happening between myself and a very close member of my family, she said her husband calls family the other "F" word. That made me laugh. But this situation in which I find myself is anything but funny.

I'm not going to publish what I started writing about the situation that is happening that made me write the title of this post. 

If you pray, please pray. If you send good vibes, please send those. 

I hate that this is the second post of 2023. There's been some great things happening, but when I received the text on 1/15/2023 that started this, the big dark cloud came and hasn't really left. 

"Nothing I say will change it." ~ wise words from my colleague. 

I cannot control what someone else understands. 

"God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference."

This makes more and more sense as I get older.

Don't Know What to Say (song)

https://youtu.be/_RuOCCjSae4I bought some music on iTunes recently... "Liv On" is the collaborative album with Olivia Newton John, Amy Sky & one of my favorite artists, Beth Nielsen Chapman. This song, "Don't Know What to Say" expressed beautifully how awkward it is when grief hits.

You don't know what to say

You don't know what to do

When life delivers this

The right words don't exist

The fault is not with you

Now everybody's come

My loved ones file by

I stand here feeling numb

while family and friends

Hug me as they cry

There is no language for this loss

Grief is a bridge that can't be crossed

Until you've felt someone you love slipping away

You don't know what to say

Now so much time has passed

For me it's standing still

and way too soon they'll ask

That I stop looking back

I hope someday I will

Thanks for being here

And listening to me

And letting me be sad

And letting me be mad

Just letting me be

There is no language for this loss

Grief is a bridge that can't be crossed

Until you've felt someone you love slipping away

You don't know what to say

Just know that it's okay

Love's the only way

When you don't know what to say

And here's the song:
https://youtu.be/_RuOCCjSae4